I read through all the poems tonight, and decided to get really  intimate with one I didn't identify strongly with at first. That one  would be Cross.
Cross
My old man's a white old man
And my old mother's black.
If ever I cursed my white old man
I take my curses back.
If ever I cursed my black old mother
And wished she were in hell,
I'm sorry for that evil wish
And now I wish her well
My old man died in a fine big house.
My ma died in a shack.
I wonder were I'm going to die,
Being neither white nor black?
There's  an obvious meter between lines. This difference in rhythm helps  contrast the two different parentages; the white man usually gets more  syllables. In a way his surplus mirrors the emphasis society places on  the white man. The driving conflict of this poem his the subject's mixed  race; his father was white and his mother was black. We can imagine the  story the story behind this poem easily. It was a wealthy estate owner  who had sex with one of his female slaves. She gave birth to her child,  and he fell into this nebulous space between the two races. (I realize  now I'm using he, and I want to say that's because of the tone, but it  could easily be a woman as well.) He lacks his father's high status in  society and should be better off than his mother. Instead, he receives  neither. Now he's lost both of his parents, and he regrets the  frustration he probably vented towards both people. Part of this is just  the remorse, but I'm sure he had his fair share of harsh words for them  both when they were alive.
What  I'm most interested in is the title. "Cross" has many connotations; the  first I thought of was a biblical one. In a sense, this mix of race is  the character's cross to bear. It represents all the struggles he must  have faced. He is also a cross of races, which was his cross to bear.  Perhaps it could even refer to his attitude; he is cross at his life  situation. Reading this gives me a whole new appreciation for creating  poetry. My statue of liberty poem does not make the cut.
I like your connotations for the title!
ReplyDeleteWhen I read this the title for me seems to be the confusion and puzzlement he saw, like an intersection that he didn't know where to turn or cross the road.